My life, Your life?

Tired! :(

2010-01-12T06:08:00.001-08:00

It has been a tiring day and a tiring week
since the school reopens.

I am really really exhausted and I hope
there is something that can holds me and guides me.

Is not hard to get good results or to study,
the main problem is you need to put EFFORT.

That is the weakness for all the students in this world.
What can I do in order to get good results?

Of course i need to be hardworking.
Hardworking, I LOVE YOU!

But stilll I believe that God will protect me
and lead my way in his own will.

Love God.

Baptism day

2009-12-20T04:48:00.000-08:00

From today onwards, i am a NEW nicole.

Everything is not going to be the same for

God will definitely be with me, he will never leave me.

I know i am weak, i am not strong enough to face things

but my God will lead me and help me whenever i need him.

Our God is an awesome God!

Though in our lives, we will be facing many problems

but through him everything will be solved. :)

I am 8 hours old! :D i am a BABY! :)

Congratulation to my brother norman for being a baby too

and of course my beloved friends Amanda and Ivy! :D

13-12-09

2009-12-12T22:34:00.000-08:00

Today is a BID DAY and meaningful day to FF.

Wheeeehooo~ Amanda Leong's birthday!

Though we only know each other for 1 and 8 months,

but i thank God that i am given a chance to know you.

I hope God will continue to bless you and provide you wisdom

so that you will do everything in His will but not your own will.

You are an awesome friend, you always care for us a lot.

I love you and FF loves you. Happy sixteen birthday! :)

2009-12-06T18:14:00.000-08:00

Recently i added many cousins in facebook.

My cousins in Ayer Tawar, though we don't really know

each other but i am glad that we can talk to each other in fb.

Amanda's birthday is coming soon, how to celebrate?

I don't know yet. Many many things are coming soon and

i've just released one of my stress this morning!

Hope to have a wonderful christmas eve and christmas luncheon.

Not to forget, YOUTH CAMP!

EVENTS!

2009-12-05T15:31:00.001-08:00

Grandfather's sister birthday -

19 December, time to be confirmed (Sitiawan, Perak)

Christmas Eve Party -

24th Decemeber, 5.30pm till 10.30pm ( MJYF Youth Centre)

Christmas Luncheon -

25th December, 10 am till 2pm (somewhere near church)

Youth Camp -

28th December till 31st December (STM, Seremban)

Well, those are all the BIG BIG events that i am going to attend.

Do ask me about the details if you want to know more about it.

Really need to start preparing for the party with all my heart.

I hope the christmas eve party and youth camp could bring out

different things and experiences for all who are participating!

Insight into Decision Making:

2009-11-30T17:17:00.000-08:00

A group of children were playing near two railway tracks, one still in use while the other disused.

Only one child played on the disused track, the rest on the operational track.

The train is coming, and you are just beside the track interchange.

You can make the train change its course to the disused track and save most of the kids.

However, that would also mean the lone child playing by the disused track would be sacrificed.

Or would you rather let the train go its way?

Let's take a pause to think what kind of decision we could make................

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Most people might choose to divert the course of the train, and sacrifice only one child.

You might think the same way, I guess.

Exactly, to save most of the children at the expense of only one child was rational decision most people would make, morally and emotionally.

But, have you ever thought that the child choosing to play on the disused track had in fact made the right decision to play at a safe place?

Nevertheless, he had to be sacrificed because of his ignorant friends who chose to play where the danger was.

This kind of dilemma happens around us everyday.
In the office, community, in politics and especially in a democratic society, the minority is often sacrificed for the interest of the majority, no matter how foolish or ignorant the majority are, and how farsighted and knowledgeable the minority are. The child who chose not to play with the rest on the operational track was sidelined.

And in the case he was sacrificed, no one would shed a tear for him.

The great critic Leo Velski Julian who told the story said he would not try to change the course of the train because he believed that the kids playing on the operational track should have known very well that track was still in use, and that they should have run away if they heard the train's sirens..

If the train was diverted, that lone child would definitely die because he never thought the train could come over to that track! Moreover, that track was not in use probably because it was not safe.

If the train was diverted to the track, we could put the lives of all passengers on board at stake!

And in your attempt to save a few kids by sacrificing one child, you might end up sacrificing hundreds of people to save these few kids.

While we are all aware that life is full of tough decisions that need to be made, we may not realize that hasty decisions may not always be the right one.

'Remember that what's right isn't always popular... and what's popular isn't always right.'

Everybody makes mistakes; that's why they put erasers on pencils.

it's up to the one, you!

2009-11-30T16:44:00.000-08:00

One song can spark a moment

One flower can wake the dream

One tree can start a forest

One bird can herald spring

One smile begins the friendship

One handclap lifts a soul

One star can guide a ship at sea

One word can frame the goal

One vote can change the nation

One sunbeam lights a room

One candle wipes out darkness

One laugh will conquer gloom

One step start each journey

One word must start each prayer

One hope will raise our spirits

One touch will show you care

One voice can speak with wisdom

One heart can know what's true

One life can make the difference

You see, it's up to the one, you!

My birthday celebration 3

2009-11-29T06:55:00.000-08:00

Today is 29 November 2009 and still, it is a memorable day.
Before i start posting this post, i will like to advise all of you that
we shouldn't be so easily angered especially guys.
Do wish people happy birthday when it is their birthday. :)

Alright, went to church for practise at 8 today.
And I had a suprise from FF and Kheng Seong.
They actually still celebrate my brithday with me.
They sang a song - i am only me when i am with you
by Taylor swift. So gam dong!

Thanks bao for the cupcakes.
Thanks Kheng Seong for the card.
Thanks Leongs for the present.

Really happy that all of you celebrated my birthday with me.
Especially to bel, thank you for the video! :D

My birthday celebration 2

2009-11-29T06:39:00.001-08:00

I celebrated my birthday with Steven on 28 November.
We went to cee ceong gai at first.
We were looking for something, but didnt manage to get it.

So then, we went to Berjaya Time Square.
We travelled by Lrt and we stopped at KL Central station,
and we need to change to monorail and stop at Imbi.

We went to have our lunch at gasoline and
we went to theme park after that.
I realised that i can't play all that as i will feel
dizzy and vomit. Though i wasn't feeling that well
but still I thank steven for all these.

Thank you for celebrating my birthday with me,
even though you know that you are having your SPM.
Thank you for sharing all your thoughts with me.
Thank you for being at my side when i need you.

My sweet sixteen has passed and i am having my SPM
next year. I hope everything will remain like now and
it won't change. Bel, thanks for the video. Appreciate it! xD

My birthday celebration 1

2009-11-29T06:22:00.000-08:00

I celebrated my first birthday which is on 27 Nov with FF.
I am really happy that my friends were being so understanding.
Being understanding in the way that they compromised
to celebrate my birthday on 27th. I am really happy.

We went to 1u around 11.30 and we had sushi for brunch.
Then, we went to TGV and we watched "New Moon".
I personally think that twilight is better than new moon.
Twilight is better because it is more romantic than new moon.

After we came out from the cinema, we saw Bao's parents.
So, we went back together.
FF : Honestly, i feel disappointed when we went back so early.
Because i don't hope that my 2009 birthday is just so short! :(

I still remember last year when we watched twilight,
we said that we will watch new moon again this year.
Same goes to next year, i hope no matter what we can still
watch breaking dawn next year. Just put SPM aside.

Ahh, i can't sleep on that night, i went to bed at 11 and
i woke up at 3 then i slept back at 6 again.
I thank everyone that wished me happy birthday.
I had a sweet 16 birthday! :) Love Fantastic Four.

My Secondary school?

2009-11-27T14:40:00.000-08:00

I just read jo ee's blog and it let me realise that

i actually don't have a good memory in secondary school

like what she has in school. I only have Bao with me. Nothing else.

That's my secondary school life in school?

To : Bao , From : Qing

2009-11-27T14:14:00.000-08:00

Thanks for the post in ur blog.

It actually made me think of many things.

Yeah, i still remember the day when i went to school.

I was really panic and scared because i don't know

a single person in that "big and clean" school.

When i was in the canteen, i actually saw your name

on the list and i was QUITE happy. Why quite?

Because i am not sure whether you are that Bao or not.

After all, when i saw you in the class..

I really really feel happy and excited.

It was like, GOSHH.. MY EX-CLASSMATE man.

The another very gan jiong part when we were in Form 1 and 2,

the time where we actually shivered when we pass through

the Bilik Disiplin. Cikgu Rashifi will like, NICOLE!!! JIA BOU!!!!

Haha, still remember how he pronounced your name.

That time everyone was laughing for the pronunciation.

Skipping skipping (ponteng ponteng) became our habit.

We started from the mini mini one, remember?

The time we skip PJK? So many excuses.

Like : Tolong cikgu, bilik disiplin and many many more.

We were really innocent when we were in Form 1.

You actually bu shuang when i always only talk to Kheng.

And i will bu shuang you when you keep talking to her too.

The most CHILDISH part was, we gek-ed each other. =)

We used her to gek each other, that was really funny.

OH YEAH, still remember "mou 3"?

Every time when i look at the card you and kheng gave,

i will laugh at it LAST TIME, now i will just smile.

The most -.- part is liang lao shi's WISH!

How about your card? Still keeping it?

"12 o'clock, tie, tree". CHILDISH.. but yet FUNNY! :)

Rainy day will be a suffering day to us,

we always turunkan the bendera no matter

how heavy the rain is. The only thing that i can remember is..

I CAN'T remember how many times we became chicken.

(call me if you don't understand this sentence)

Do you know that is okay if we don't keep it when it is raining?

Many many things seem being thrown aside.

Lets chase back the time where we actually

kept laming, joking and laming and joking.

Our friendship is a true and good friendship,

but i know something went wrong between us.

I hope as I grow, i will learn how to care for people

around me and being understanding especially to you.

Thank you for being a good friend,

you are really good just that recently we need to

communicate more and LIAO JIE each other more.

I love you, Bao.=)

28 November 2009

2009-11-27T14:03:00.001-08:00

I am clarified as sixteen from today onwards but still,

I am YOUNG. You do not need to doubt that.

16, what does sixteen means to you?

What does sixteen actually mean to me?

To me, it is a beginning of REAL exams-mare.

To me, it is a ending of my honeymoon year.

I appreciate that God has given me a chance to actually

sit in front of the computer and type all these.

It is a grace from God and it is not what we are suppose to get.

This is all because God loves us.

Though today is my birthday, i should sound happy.

But i always think that what if i am not given a chance

to stay longer in this world? I know i will have many

regrets and i tried to do everything that I can to show

how much i care and how much i love to everyone.

But i think I didn't manage to do so.

Whatever i do, it will not go to the original purpose of mine.

But I'm still being gracious that God has given me

what He thinks is good to me like..

My family, FF and Steven.

I thank God for that. :)

FF - Fantastic Four

2009-11-23T16:41:00.000-08:00

FF - Fantastic four consists of 4 members which are

Amanda Leong, Belinda Leong, Ivy Tan and Nicole Leaw.

We have no leaders in this group.,

this is a democratic group.

We used to be very good last year

THOUGH we did quarrel a lot.

But recently, i feel sorry to them.

I didn't talk to them much,

care for them much especially Bao.

Bao : I am really sorry, what you said last night

i really put it in my heart. I hope we will be even better

than last time. I am really sorry.

FF, i really miss the moment we actually talked and

chat a lot. I know i did not care for you all much,

hope God will continue to bless our friendship

and lead us in everything we do. :) I love 3 of you.

A day in church?!

2009-11-22T05:35:00.000-08:00

Today I skipped bible class with Steven,

we studied Accounts together in Oldtown.

Went to church after that, it was a short sermon.

But the most interesting and fun part in church today is

when the time we actually hid to scare Lucas.

But something which is not too good is king yean was sad.

He wasn't participating in time game though it was fun.

I fell down in church today,

not very pain but NOT WORTH it.

Thanks to ***** Ho. I am just telling the truth and in case

you read this, i am not MENTIONING your name.

Amanda, today you were doing well in leading LOL.

Belinda, today you were being caring when i was talking.

Bao, today you were being nice and friendly to me. :)

Ah, i laughed a lot today.

Hope everything will go smoothly.

Wonderful Morning

2009-11-21T15:28:00.000-08:00

Today is Sunday, Sunday is a NEW DAY!

I woke up at 7 to harvest my crops and to steal.

Sorry bao and bel, i stole yours.

My Saturday ;)

2009-11-21T06:16:00.000-08:00

I found something interesting,

Nowadays Ho Family is very ACTIVE in Barn Buddy.

I was waiting to steal Jocelyn's crops with my sister,

the moment i want to steal, everything is gone.

Recently i like to sing song, ANY song.

I find that singing is quite fun and i am NOT singing

in church tomorrow. Rejected Felicia, sorry Fel. :(

I am going to skip bible class tomorrow, why?

I am studying accounts with Steven tomorrow.

I hope we can learn something from each other.

I just started to play Maple and i am already level 21.

Amazing, you know? PLEASE don't ikut jejak saya.

It is not good. If you have time, PLEASE study.

Church, church and church!

I miss church!

I love my family and i love P7.

FUNNY, AT TIMES - PATIENT - I HOPE

2009-11-20T21:17:00.000-08:00

Went to Atria with daddy just now,

we actually joke with each other. :)

I find that my daddy is actually FUNNY, AT TIMES.

Mummy "ngam-ed" me just now,

the first time i actually didn't "bok jui".

I need to learn to be PATIENT.

Bao, what you said are right,

we should have a good time management.

Therefore i will learn from you, i'll use my time wisely.

Together we score good results next year, I HOPE.

If i let you go - Westlife

2009-11-20T06:58:00.000-08:00

Day and days, i am still repeating the same thing.

Do you know how many series of drama i watched?

You will never know. Study? Haha! GO AWAY!

SUDDENLY a song appears in my mind.

If i let you go - Westlife

day after day
time pass away
and I just can't get you off my mind
nobody knows
I hide it inside
I keep on searching but i can't find

the courage to show
to letting you know
I've never felt so much love before
and once again I'm thinkin' about
takin' the easy way out

but if I let you go
I will never know
what my life would be
holding you close to me
will I ever see
you smiling back at me
oh yeah
how will I know
if I let you go

night after night
I hear myself say
why can't this feeling just fade away
there's no one like you
you speak to my heart
it's such a shame
we're worlds apart

I'm too shy to ask
I'm too proud to lose
but sooner or later I've gotta choose
and once again
I'm thinkin' about
taking the easy way out

but if I let you go
I will never know
what my life would be
holding you close to me
will I ever see
you smiling back at me
oh yeah
how will I know
if I let you go

if I let you go, oh baby

oooh

once again I'm thinkin' about
takin' the easy way out

but if I let you go
I will never know
what my life would be
holding you close to me (close to me)
will I ever see
you smiling back at me
oh yeah
how will I know
if I let you go

but if I let you go
I will never know
(oh baby)

will I ever see
you smiling back at me
oh yeah
How will I know
(how will i know)
if I let you go

The reason that i posted this song here is because of the

first sentence which i highlighted.

Ahh, i did message FF members OR talking to them in msn.

So happy, and amanda you know what?

Today you are being so caring, i am really happy.

I am singing in church this sunday, to replace AARON.

So aaron you better call me if you see this. :)

I was sad today, thanks to Steven.

But now i am alright, i have a little bit fever now

but by God's grace, i will be alright!

Trust me, I am a girl! :)

I love God, love my family (especially nat nat) and p7!

5 challenging changes to me.

2009-11-19T08:31:00.000-08:00

Hey guys, i have shifted my blog to here and it is now activate!

Finally, i fixed my computer this afternoon.

It costs about RM90 to change the power supply stuff.

I thought i have to announce that my desktop is dead,

but praise God it still haven't die, it is still ALIVE!

I have a few things that i want to say to a few person here.

1. My beloved family :

I know you will not have a chance to see this,

but still I hope that all of You will forgive me for what I did.

I know my communication way is not right, i will CHANGE!

2. My beloved FF :

Recently we do not have much time to talk to each other,

or maybe you all did but I didn't. I am very sorry about that,

from today onwards if POSSIBLE i will send each and everyone

of you at least a message to show that i DO care for 3 of u.

I hope you will understand that, that is the way to show that

Nicole does care. But if i am afford to do more, i will.

I will make a CHANGE in our relationship.

3 To Steven :

I think recently we are very good and therefore i don't really

have time for my FF. So i hope we can together build our

relationship with FF, a pure relationship that everyone does

share and talk to each other, not only between us. I know

recently you are having your SPM but still I hope we can do

a little little things that show we really care for FF.

Lets make a CHANGE to improve P7 relationship.

4. My special friends - Soon Yau and Jia Hou :

It has been a long long time that we didn't communicate,

I hope in the future we will have much time to chat and

have outing with FF. All the best in your SPM and remember

that we are all PERFECT SEVEN, no matter where you are.

Lets make a CHANGE in P7 relationship.

5. My friends :

I hope i can care for each and everyone around me,

but to all my friends, I am so SORRY that I CAN'T,

but as what jesus said "love your neighbour as yourself",

i will try to do that even i know that it is hard to achieve.

Specially to Juinn, thanks for being my "ah mei",

will appreciate our friendship.

Make a CHANGE to improve one's friendship.

The reason that i created this blog is to have a new life,

i hope i can do everything that all of you want me to do.

Even living for the others, i do not mind.

I hope we ALL can live in this world HAPPILY.

We do not know when will JESUS comes again.

I hope we can appreciate what we have in this world.

I love God, i love my family, i love P7 and i appreciate all of you.